I am here

You’re doing great they all say. I’m not so sure. Who’s not sure? I start to listen to the ideas in my head. Stepping back I observe the thought, it’s validity/invalidity and it’s origin. I detach personally to view it objectively. This continuous expansion keeps me from attaching to ideas that don’t serve anyone. It… Continue reading I am here


Systematically Attempting to Define the Infinite

When I was a kid I used to try to wrap my brain around the idea of infinity. I had a strong sense there was an understanding of truth just beyond me. It only seemed reasonable to me that if anyone could, then I could know it directly. When I was 18 I had experienced… Continue reading Systematically Attempting to Define the Infinite


My indefinable consistent nature has saturated my mind thoroughly and most often I find thoughts running overtime, seeking something to hold onto, defining and redefining, I find myself nowhere in these inconsistencies and dualities. I felt intense resistance yesterday following a period of grace... actually it’s all grace. I was crying intermittently with it the… Continue reading Residuals

Transition feelings

I feel broken apart shattered. Noticing it and how these definitions do no justice at all. I have no definition but my mind wants to continuously make one out of anything. Whatever. I feel I can focus on anything and that becomes a seeming reality. Great blessings and gratitude. I try to consider, what am… Continue reading Transition feelings